Gratitude List

I am a very happy person, but sometimes I get overwhelmed with my health issues. I will be lying in bed and I'll start having a pain in my chest. It's not a very strong pain, but it's there. I will start thinking,"What can this be? What if it's that tumor in my heart? What if this is it? What if this is when I'm going to die?"Sometimes I will call Mom to come down stairs, and she will sit on the side of the bed and ask me if I need her to get me anything like a heat pack or a glass of warm water. By then it usually starts to subside. So she just sits with me until I feel better, and then she goes back to bed.  I know that when I start thinking about the pain too much, I panic.  That's why I call Mom.  My panic attacks almost always happen at night. That's why I stay up late sometimes.  Like tonight.  I don't feel well because of my asthma.

I love to make lists.  Gocery lists, Gratitude list, character defect lists (mine not yours). Sometimes I'll even make a list of my good qualities to help self-esteem.  I really like making the gratitude list.  It helps me to stay positive and give God thanks.  I write 5 a day.  They have to be different every day for that week.  Except thanking God for my health.  That's an everyday one.

5 Gratitudes (in no particular order)
My health
Jesus
Mom
Trees
Grace

This is one place that writing this publicly will help me.  Last year I kept a journal, and it had my grat list for every day plus my journaling.  I only missed 4 days out of the whole year.  This year- not doing too good.  I need to be held accountable.  So I am going to write my list on here every day that it is physically possible to do so.  Now, I have to do it.  Cool!

There are many more things that I am supposed to be doing for my health and spirituality that I will get aound telling you. But, for now, I'm signing off.  Sorry for any mistakes.  I'm too tired to check.

Thanks for listening,

Michelle