A lot has happened since the last time I wrote. Doctor appointments, me not feeling well, lots of stress and pain are what's been going on.

I saw my pulmonologist and had a heart scan a couple weeks ago. My dr appt was just a check up. I couldn't finish the 6 minute walk, but the weather was bad and it was bothering my asthma. I Found out that, for certain, they can do lung transplant and open heart surgery simultaneously in Oklahoma City. Yay!

The next day I had my heart scan. It wasn't too bad. It didn't take very long to complete it. They say my tumor takes up a considerable amount of my right aorta. That scares me, but I'm trusting God and I know he is taking care of me and will lead me on the path that he wants me to follow. Doctor sent my heart file and scans to a Cardiovascular surgeon in California for a second opinion. They want to know what is the best course of action for my heart and lungs. They might decide that I need to get on transplant list as soon as possible or decide that, maybe, a specialist can get to it, the tumor, through my vains. I don't know. I'm just going to follow the path.

Lots of info, I know. I have been working on a few projects when I can. I colored a face I drew for the first time. I liked it. I still have a long ways to go to be good at it, but it's a start.

1. I'm grateful that all these specialists work together to give me the best care they can give.
2. Grateful my sis and her family are coming home for Pioneer Days this weekend
3. Thankful for all the prayers I'm getting
4. Thankful for all the great teachers I had growing up
5. Thankful that I knew Phyllis and JD Ford.

Live for today

Hello! I've been having some really great days. I have so many people praying with me and for me. It's truly amazing how loving and caring my friends are. God is so good! I love my church! Everyone is so awesome!

The Easter play at church could not have been any more perfect! Everyone did a great job. I went to the dress rehearsal since I probably wouldn't make it to church on Sunday morning.

I've been playing in my craft room quite a bit. Jaci did such a good job organizing it for me. As soon as my new desk gets put together, I'll put up some pics.

Me and two of my friends are making our own prayer journals. We got together one day last week and worked on them. Time goes by so fast when we're talking and creating! Lol. We didn't get hardly anything done, it didn't look like ,but we had the best time just being together. We talked about our journeys that brought us to where we were right now in our spiritual lives.

I think my spiritual journey really started when I quit drinking. That is when I started praying more and trying to live with God in charge of my life instead of me.

I'm so glad I had this conscious contact with God before I got sick. I don't know what would have happened otherwise. It scares me to think about it. I probably would have taken my own life.

There are so many added responsibilities when you have a major illness like Pulmonary Hypertension. Trying to keep track of all medications, dr appts., liquid intake, diet, blood tests and other tests is not always easy. It can be very stressful and frustrating. I have to have God to lean on and to help me through it so that i dont go crazy. Thank goodness he gave me my mom and the rest of my family and friends. I have a lot of people I can turn to for help.

I'm so thankful for my life. I like it. It may not be the easiest or the most exciting way to live, but I am happy and content today. What more can I ask for. As long as I live for today I am ok. I'm in good hands and if I have an immediate problem, I know the man upstairs will gladly take care of it for me.

I hope today was good for you too!